MOM BUSTED IN AND SAID ‘WHATS THAT NOISE’

So..

Why can’t we be happy for each other? I’m really happy for Allison for getting her iPod. I’m really happy that Tk actually knows what she’s doing and how to get there. I’m really happy that Ashley is getting her GPA up so that she can get into her perfect school. I’m really happy that Sarah has a natural talent for photography.. oh! And that she’s graduating! I’m really happy that Josh has a BRAND NEW car (okay.. I’m really really really jealous..but.. in a good way!). I’m really happy that my brothers are going to buy a bar together. I’m genuinely happy for you guys!

I don’t want to bring you down to make up for my own vulnerability or inadequacies. I feel like jealousy ruins us. The other day, an offhand remark was made about me. While I was having a discussion with someone about what I may want to study, someone made a comment about me to the other person I was talking to. Basically, what was said is that I’m not a very good writer. I think the comment was made due to jealousy of the attention that was on me at the time. I’m not really sure if the person meant it,or was just trying to bring me down. I feel like if they had meant it, they would have told me and not the person I was conversing with. But maybe not. I’m not sure. Whether or not the comment was truthful is irrelevant to how it made me feel. I felt belittled and embarrassed, which I’m sure is precisely the purpose it was supposed to serve.

I truly am happy for you guys! Of course I’ll feel jealousy from time to time, but it doesn’t have to overcome me. When someone tells you something awesome has happened to them, you’re first thought shouldn’t be “Damn’t! I’m so jealous!” It should be “That’s so awesome! God, I am so happy for you! I’m jealous, but still, that’s so cool!”. The jealousy can be an afterthought, but it shouldn’t consume you.

So, get over it. Be happy for each other and be proud of your friends accomplishments. It’s tough, but, you pretty much just need to deal with it.

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  1. Comment by Josh on March 30, 2008 9:26 pm

    I’m jealous of me too.

    We’re still trying to think of a name for her. I’d like the name to be in parallel with that of a high dollar whore.

    Beautiful, luxurious, loose and fast.

    Any suggestions?

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